However, an infinite player would never claim NOT to give a shit about that, BECAUSE he/she is an infinite player and that would be a dead giveaway that they are NOT playing infinitely.
It’s NOT that Infinite Players don’t “care.” They care about alot. Just not the way you or I “care.” The way an Infinite Player “cares,” would often seem to you or I, as if they just didn’t give a shit. But that would be based on our “Rules of Care and Concern,” and rule number one of our game demands it be displayed in certain specific ways and in particular fashion.
Take death for example. We tend to fearfully boohoo and bawl about it. Yet, in observing those I have suspected to be Infinite Players, this is just NOT the case. Oh sure, they shed tears like anyone else, but the Infinite Player always seems to be coming from another ‘place,’ with regard to their interactions with the world. Like some kind of deeper meaning that, actually when displayed, seems to mean very little (at least to you or I).
At a funeral many years ago, I recall observing a woman I suspected of playing Infinitely. I could be mistaken in my assessment, but it seemed that, although there were tears, a faint smile (barely detectable) seemed to be underneath the sorrow. So, I ask you....wassupwidat? What could one have to smile about with regard to death? Could it be that Infinite Players actually have NO FEAR of death? Of course, that would explain alot in terms of their NOT seeming to give a shit about so many things or, at least, there not seeming to give a shit the way we give a shit.
So what is it, you might ask, that an Infinite Player gives a shit about. Well, that’s hard to say, since I only consider myself an observer of the Infinite Player and in no way an actual Infinite Player (of course, if I did, then that would only indicate that I was NOT). I am only privy to the external conduct and not the underlying motives. I remember speaking to one I suspected of playing infinitely. I inquired into the general attitude and life outlook that fascinated me, yet seemed entirely strange, almost otherworldly. Alas, the response was merely a “Dude, (laughter) what the fuck are you talking about??”
It seems the Infinite Player has absolutely no interest in defining him/herself, nor in being defined by others. They appear to have NO “normalized” persona that can be pegged with any degree or precision or accuracy and they fit NO categories of thought. Obviously, this makes my self-appointed job of distilling the chief ingredients, and determining the common denominators, that much more difficult, since they defy any psychological explanation.
How can one seek to emulate that which defies explanation? How can we learn to play Infinitely, if we do not know how and the Infinite Player has no capacity, based on an Infinite Perspective, to define the qualities?
Thus, I can only hypothesize, which is exactly what I do here and now. Yet, there are certain traits that I have been able to definitively observe. Infinite Players have the distinct ability to play with anyone and within any system of rules. Yet, although they do play games within specific systems of rules, they seem not to take the rules very seriously. It’s as if they are not in any way restricted or bound by the rules. This tends to display a Lightness of Being that is not available to finite players, who tend to play with much serious intent toward achieving outcomes and winning ego-games. Infinite Players certainly display a sense of ‘self’ but seem NOT to be egocentrically oriented to that ‘self.’
I am currently studying one now and will keep you apprised of my observations and any hypotheses as to the motivations. But keep in mind, as opposed to finite players, the Infinite Player is very elusive and hard to pin down.
It's as if they live in some sort of paradoxical infinite fluidity…
Addendum: Infinite Play on Judgment Day