There is nothing in your 'world' that can sustain you and valuing it for that purpose only perpetuates your feeling of loss because this is what the world has taught you. Valuing anything as necessary to completion, reinforces your belief in your incompletion... in perpetuity.
All egos are incomplete and must remain so for the duration. If you are an ego-self you will experience deprivation in some form or another.
You have always felt that something was missing. You have lived with an emptiness that your struggles to fill have only served to further deepen. Every “loving” relationship, every moment of pleasure, every object coveted, has left you still feeling incomplete. Your relationships drain and disillusion you, your moments of pleasure fade and all objects lose their value.
You are desensitized to the very reality you make real, simply because nothing can complete that which is already completed. Your search is over before it began, because you have no "needs" and, thus, there is nothing to search for.
However, you do sense something there, beyond your 'perception,' that you believe must sustain and complete you. Yet, you will never seek further than your learned expectations allow and so you will continue to perpetuate your deprivation. As time passes, your expectations become less desirable only because you expect less, yet still hope for more. You will eventually exhaust the search simply because in the end, death is your only prize and this is the most valuable prize you ever learned to expect, since you do not doubt death will one day be yours, while everything else turns to dust. Eventually, you will realize that in your "world," death is the only "need" you're guaranteed to fulfill.
It would indeed be sad if even one aspect of this predicament were true. However, every belief you hold in your mind is patently false and that includes your concept of death. Nothing you see or hear and every thought, based solely on what the body needs or seeks to avoid, is delusional.
The only completion required is the complete disposal of all you have learned that teaches you are incomplete. You are beginning to have faith that there may be something more than what you have learned and this brings truth that much closer. Yet, truth does not require sacrifice, only acknowledgment of its total completion.
Unfortunately, you believe that you can NOT let go of every belief, since how would you be able to interact with others, make money and feed your family. If you let go every belief that you have based on the past how could you continue to function? What would you base your brief episodic "happiness" on? You fear such sacrifices and therefore, your sacrifices in the world merely serve to avoid the ultimate sacrifice of giving up the world.
Fear is your teacher and demands you teach what IT knows, therefore you have no idea of your "function." Look at you world. You teach what you were taught from a world invested in fear. Every thought in your mind teaches what you believe MUST be true.
In relation to the things that you “must” do, there is no reason to discontinue your “doing.” Yet, through a change in perception your "doing" will be transformed, because completion does not REQUIRE doing anything. If you examine your current beliefs, you will see that what you DO must entail some degree of suffering. This is what you WILL experience in everything you DO, as long as you do it to achieve anything of VALUE that you have determined as VALUABLE to your completion.
You have no idea of the reason why you DO anything, although you DO allow the world to determine your purpose and this is why you suffer. The world cannot teach what it does not know, so why allow it this function?
Consistent inquiring into your "purpose" may assist you in processing goals for your future since currently, you do believe in a future. However, the goal must be determined from that part of you that has no investment in the world you believe is real.
Do you set your goals by the voice for truth or are your goals determined by the voices of the world, which loudly proclaims that you are deprived and have NEEDS that must be fulfilled. Each day you must ask “whose goal do I choose?” Inevitably, you must choose, and what you experience determines what you HAVE chosen.
Do you really believe you know what you need? Do you believe you were created incomplete and thereby have needs that must be filled? Look no further then your suffering, or lack thereof, as it proves what you believe.
There is one goal and one function that has been established by your Being. In time, all your goals will attest to your completion, since you will teach it and, therefore, you will perceive it everywhere you look.
Look for it now.
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