Yet, because this 'order' is nothing more than abstract chaos, compromises break down and eventually lead to utter disillusionment with delusional order. We see this happening in the world today. Structures from which the ego define itself are crumbling as egos defiantly struggle to maintain these imaginary structures from which self-actualization is achieved.
But if the structures are delusional, so is your actualization. It never was and never will be...'actual.'
The world is experiencing what seems a break down of the actual 'order,' but only because order was never there in the first place, only a belief in order superimposed upon chaos.
The ego-self can never have anything but disorder and chaos, simply because it does NOT know what its 'purpose' IS and therefore, knows NOT what it IS.
A mind without purpose, can only experience chaos and be forced to make it work. Thus, you have installed all manner of purposes upon your experience of self and world.
Are you fulfilled by your career? Your family, your finances, your possessions? Do you demand your "life" be meaningful? Do you lead a "purposeful" existence?
How will you cope when all is finally exposed as delusional nothingness? When all your significant purposes and functions become nothing more than phantasmagorical delusion. What will "you" be? How will you define your 'self'? Will you seek to anchor your 'self ' to new beliefs? Will you become immersed in your "spirituality" and religion? Will you adopt a belief in "non-duality"?
Will you become angry? Will you fall into despair? Will you struggle to make it all REAL again?
Maybe it's time to start dissembling the ego. Maybe it's time to start dissecting the self. Maybe it's time to start accepting chaos and become an infinite player. Such a game has no outcome and no purpose....
...and in that...is your only freedom.
But can you stand it?
Artwork by Luis Lorenzana - "The World is Full of Lonely People"
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