Okay, so we live out our day to day existence with barely a thought regarding origin (other than momma’s womb). We either consider it not worthy of thought or we simply accept what we have been taught by the 'masters' of science and religion. “What am I” has always been “the unanswered question.” So let’s see if we can move closer to an answer, while at the same time never giving an answer (which would be against the rules of the game).
CONCEPTUALITY
You experience your ‘self’ in your mind as a bundle of mental concepts or ideals (even “experience” is a concept). Your experience of reality is actually concept upon concept upon concept, seemingly on ad infinitum, layers upon layers of seemingly infinite concepts, some connected, some not (consider the process of 'thinking.' sometimes you string thoughts together, sometimes they just appear outa nowhere).
Thoughts are concepts, as is the “process” of “thinking” merely conceptual, and even your conceiving of a “concept” is itself a concept. Everything you believe true is conceptual and has no other substance but that (and who knows what the frig that's made of). This includes the "physical" world, which might be physical, yet we don't really know that. We just know our experience of the world, conceptualized as "physical' in our mind.
But concepts are NOT Truth (that would end our game) since absolute Truth (cap 'T' for absolute as opposed to relative) cannot be conceptual (that's a different game). To conjure up a concept, whether you believe it’s real or not, would be to lock it into your mind, based on how you have defined it. Therefore, truth is relative to the mind that conceptualizes it as true. This game plays specifically with relative truths as a process of moving closer to absolute Truth (in which there is only ONE game).
Your non-conceptual Truth is, has been, and always will be, that you are God and God created you that way (But, like I said, non-conceptuality is a different game).
God (or your origin) did not conceive a "you" (as in, conceptually think you into existence). However, you do conceive your ‘self’ into existence, everyday in fact. So it’s a good thing you can remember the concepts that made up who and what you were yesterday. Just think what would happen if you woke up with no idea of how you conceived of your 'self' the day before. HA! Actually, "you" remember and recognize your ‘self’ as a bunch of mental concepts which often change for a variety of reasons, but the core concepts MUST NEVER change. That's a rule you set, which is certainly available for revision in an infinite game.
However, concepts have limitations based solely on what you decide they should be. Obviously, God is not limited in any way and could only create without limitation or, non-conceptually. Note that God is defined however you choose to relatively conceive of God. The only additional rule I'm adding is that God is beyond all concepts and therefore, does not in anyway conceptualize anything, whatsoever (feel free to break this rule at any time!).
As God is, God creates, and therefore, you were created as unlimited (not limited by concepts) or as God. Problem is, that’s not how you conceive (conceptualize) of your ‘self.’ In your mind you conceive of your ‘self’ as very limited, indeed. All based on the concepts through which you, and nobody else, define yourself.
Concepts are specifically defined and that is a rule of conceptuality. This rule states that anything that can be defined must, essentially, be limited and pinned down exclusively TO that very definition. The moment you assert, “this is an apple,” it’s a done deal and it can’t be break free of the mental properties that you apply, simply because you won't let it. You need it to be an "apple." You have limited it to its properties, based on your concept of "apple." Otherwise, it could be something else, but once you name it "apple," you have defined the properties it must conform to no matter who taught you the concept of "apple" in the first place (that teaching concept is referred to as "conditioning" and it's often used as an excuse for a whole slew of other concepts).
All of this applies to your concept of 'self' as well.
SELF-CONCEPT
It’s the same with the ‘self’ and although there are embodied "selves" (remember, 'body' is just another concept) that break limits (run 3 minute mile) it is always within well-defined parameters (your specifically defined concept of an embodied ‘self’ cannot run a 30 second mile because that's beyond your concept of self or even other selves).
You define all your concepts and, most significantly, your concept of ‘self’. But since you were not created as a concept, you will never understand who you really are (or answer the unanswered question) by relying on concepts. It just won’t work because it can change at the drop of a hat.
We cannot absolutely define God, as God transcends conceptual understanding, however, we do conceive of God (conceptualize or think up) in all kinds of crazy relative ways, just as we conceive of ourselves in crazy ways, but always within specific parameters. Thus, "you" cannot define who you are, as defined by God, because only God can define you that way (which may not be anything resembling a "you" that you could think of).
IDENTIFY AND STRIP
You can only explore who you are as defined by "you." Yet, you can go very far in understanding your self-concept and with each identifying and stripping away of concepts inherent to that definition, you actually add a little more freedom to your definition of ‘self,’ which is often heavily weighed down by too many concepts. For instance, the concept of "body" is a real burden for some folks, so they might wish to strip it or they could discard varying concepts of the body. You could completely do away with the concept of "fat," which is only conceptualized in comparison to "skinny," so both concepts could be discarded (which would certainly change the rules of the dieting game!)
However, as you strip away limited concept after limited concept, you will eventually get to a point were you can go no further. There are many "ancient masters" who claimed to have gone that far and although the truth of many of these claims is suspect, I see no reason why it couldn't happen. The problem is that some felt that by doing this they were winners and the game was over and obviously, the very fact that we play here now, contradicts a winner having ever ended the game.
Nevertheless, at that point of non-conceptuality, you no longer need do anything more except discard the final concept of 'self' (whatever that might be) and that would completely dissolve how you conceptually define your ‘self’ and the unanswered question will dissolve, along with "you," as finally answered. But, of course, that would make you a winner and the game would be over and many bright minds seem to play such a game.
However, at the end of concepts something happens (well, not really “happens” because that would be a concept of time). You then begin to play a new game called "non-conceptuality," which cannot be conceptually understood, suffice it to say that it cannot be comprehended by a mind distracted by the game of conceptualizing a ‘self’ in a ‘world.’ Nevertheless, I have reason to believe that such a game exists.
However, note that I expect that you reject these rules as I conceive of them. Feel free to add some of your own since there can be no winners in this game, but the game must go on. I recognize all this might be difficult to follow, but try not to take all this to serious. Games should never be taken seriously and that's why they're called "games."
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